If one day

If one day I still keep
These unspoken feelings from you,
And you do not have the chance
To listen to my every syllable, my every word,my every sentence
And my long awkward pauses,
You can read all my poems
That I have composed for you,
On my scattered notebook pages,
On my Ipad,
In my long-winded blog,
Through my siblings and
Closed acquaintances.

If one day,
Death greets you,
Believe me,
InsyaAllah, you would be safe,
Unscathed,
As you are always in my dua,
And I never stop praying
For you.

If Death greets me first,
I hope I could still pray for your safety
In this world and the Hereafter.

If one day you stop
Hearing news about me,
It does not mean I stop making dua
For you,
My feelings for you
Are like the gushing river
Albeit you may not think of me,
Not even a second,
As I know only she
conquers the space
In your heart.

I will still pray for your safety and eternal bliss,
Despite you are the cause of my patched heart,
I will still remember you
In my dua.

-Nuruljannah-