Goodbye

I fell in love with a man,
Who indeed drives me insane.

I did not see it coming,
It is indeed bad timing.

I felt there was a strong connection,
But it is gruelling to grab your attention.

It has always been her in your heart,
She is your invaluable diamond cut.

You pine after her,
Your happily-ever-after.

While I am just a fool,
Who broke every rule.

I let my heart lead the way,
It makes me go astray.

I heard you won her heart back,
I almost got a heart attack.

You have stung me like a deadly bee,
But you are still important to me.

If she ever hurts you,
I'll haunt her and whoever hurts you too.

Your happiness is what I desire,
Even if you burn me like fire.

I really miss the moment when you said "hi"
But now it's time to say goodbye.

-Nuruljannah-

P.S. Only Allah knows how I feel right now.

Dear God

Dear God,
The Almighty One,
If he is not the one for me,
And these feelings,
Are not your gift,
Please remove him,
Please cut this enigmatic chord,
Please annihilate these ludicrous worries.

It is difficult,
Dear Ar-Rahman,
To stifle these adamant tears
Especially when
my heart cries
With unseen tears.
Please dear God,
The Almighty One,
Please make my heart stop
from bleeding
With reddish tears,
Please remove him,
Please cut this enigmatic chord,
Please annihilate these ludicrous worries.

-Nuruljannah-

I Heard Your Dreams Are Coming True

I heard
Your dreams
Are coming true,
Soon,
The knives are piercing through my soul,
I still curve a wide smile
At least your dreams
Are coming true,
I could see you, smiling,
Its radiance almost blinded me,
I've never seen it before,
I know your dreams are coming true,
But the knives are piercing through my soul,
As I am not in that dream,
Hey,
At least your dreams are coming true,
And I am glad,
Albeit the knives are piercing though my soul.

-Nuruljannah-

The Road of Thorns

How could I walk away

If you're the one who fills

My intricate void,

The void that I've never

realized I had.
 I know I have to

walk straight ahead,

And bear walking

On this road of thorns.

You have

given me the answer

In a convoluted way,

Where should I head to.

I try to walk straight ahead

On this road of thorns,
As long as it is not you
who bleeds.

-Nuruljannah-

My Gardenia

I wish I could

Weed out this

Adamant gardenia
That grew inside my heart,

And I did not have enough strength,

To pluck it

And give it to you.

It took me for
Almost 5 years
To pluck it.

When I did,

It seems you cannot see

My pure gardenia,

As you already possess,

An enchanting red rose.

-Nuruljannah-

There is nothing lonelier than

There is nothing lonelier than
Waiting for someone
Who would never come.
I wait there, shuddering,
Through the dim passages.
Dust of hope impedes me
From walking away,
I wait there, shuddering
Without knowing that I have
built black walls,
That separate me from
The Creator of Light.

-Nuruljannah-

Your answer

The distance keeps growing,

I see callousness in your eyes,

The friendly smiles wane,

The walls are taller and thicker.

Perhaps, that is your answer

To my question.

-Nuruljannah-

At Last

At Last

The secret poetry,

The music I play for you,

The unspoken words,

I've let them free.

I know I should rejoice

As no regrets will haunt me,

Even if the result is

Catastrophic,

But,

Nothing worse when you replied me

Like an unresolved cliffhanger.

-Nurujannah-